The Postmarks - Balloons
Stylo - Gorillaz
this is the most perfect video ever made
also go get this music i keep trying to stop listening to it and i cant
blank banshee : eco zones : blank banshee 1
I am super into this song lately
These Pancakes are Tiny, by Matthew Seely, aka Sexysexybicycle.
sorry i had to wait to answer this, it deserved a better answer than the one i could have given you in between bites of egg sandwich.
having to cope with suicide ideation was one of the hardest part of recovery because, for a long time, i had no one i would tell these thoughts to without fear of repercussions (for the reason you gave and also because it alienates you even further from the people you’ve got left after you become a social hermit. how are people supposed to respond to that, except with panic?)
the internet is amazing for this. because you can scream into a void or cry at someone close enough to you emotionally to care. i didnt need someone to tell me “dont do it!” because the followup to this argument was always “because suicide is selfish/weak/not the answer” which is SO insulting to hear when you aren’t TRYING to feel this way. its happening beyond your control and these people are getting angry and belittling you for something that comes as naturally as breathing.
what i needed to hear was that it would pass. and there would be a time i wouldnt feel like this anymore and that i had a group of friends who earnestly, honestly wanted to see me feel better for MYSELF and not for their convenience. i didnt want demands to stop feeling these uncontrollable urges, i just needed reassurance that what i was feeling was valid, and would be over.
suicide needs to be discussed. suicide is framed by the majority who live without experiencing these urges and intrusive thoughts. suicide needs to be discussed by survivors and survivors need to be heard so that people understand what its like when your brain turns against you. suicide needs to stop being demonized by people who are incapable of empathy and skewed to paint the victims as lesser beings. there needs to be open discussion on suicide and for it to stop being stigmatized.
this is the culmination of thousands of years of culture and the human experience. there will never be a piece of art as beautiful, compelling, and essential to our condition as this.